1/2 lb

When I got on the scale today, I was ecstatic that I lost a 1/2lb. I have been in Limbo for awhile, and it is nice to see my efforts rewarded. Today was a CRAZY day w/ class parties and getting ready for my oldest's party tomorrow. So, hopefully I will stay on track this weekend. I won't be getting much sleep, and that will make it hard. But I am determined.

YES!

I exercised today. I was soooooo tired this morning, but I did get up and mow the lawn and sweep the patio today. Which took an hour. Not as hard as my usual routine. But it was something. And it helps being able to log my food/exercise again. So, it was a good day!

Well . . . . .

I did get to the gym today. But it took me FOREVER to pay bills this morning, so I could only work out for 40min. Why does Peoples Bank feel the need to update their online banking when it was working perfectly fine before??? I guess they never heard of "if it ain't broke don't fix it!" I liked it the old way, maybe I will get use to it, or maybe I will go back to writing checks. . . . Well maybe I will just get used to it.
Back from my tangent, I wanted to work out for 60min, but I think it would probably be best if I just try to do at leat 30min everyday. Get back into the routine of exercising 5 days a week again, then start increasing the time. This is going to be a crazy week enough as it is. Tomorrow, I have to get the pumpkins carved, because I have to go grocery shopping/bake cookies on Thursday. Friday is shool party day, and cupcakes for Noah's bday party on Sat. Anyone wanting to help out. Just come on over!!! Bring your elbow grease b/c I have to clean the house in there somewhere. And sleep. Sometime. Maybe next week.

Too sick!

I was feeling under the weather today. So, I hope to get back to my daily exercising 2moro. Since I would like my wii fit age to be less than 47. I would like to know exactly how they figure that from my balance. I have never been very graceful. My brothers can attest to that. Years of ballet obviously didn't help. Sorry, I got sidetracked. I hope to get back the desire and need to workout everyday. This is going to be a BUSY week/weekend, and I would really like to begin refocusing and losing weight b4 the holidays. And work is no longer blocking sparkpeople.com so that will help. It helps to track the food/exercise and goals. But I didn't have enough time in the day. Speaking of the numbers of hours in the day. I think I need to go to bed!

We are going for a Fall look!

I have decided to change the blog w/the weather change. And wishing today that I still could go to Praire Life. I like Matt Ross, but today the boys don't have school and I can't go to the gym until they go to their Dad's. Because of daycare. At Praire Life, we were all members so the daycare was included. And they would take the kids to the gym and play games w/them, etc. But I have to pay for each child at Matt Ross, and I am cheap. Noah only has 7 more days that he could be in the daycare anyway, since it is for 9 and under. But the weather is poor, so I am letting it sour my mood and I have to work tonight. I NEED a vacation! Anyone willing to pay for that and supplement my income since I don't get vacation. . . . ANYONE . . . anyone???? Didn't think so. Oh, well. If I must work, then I must.

Just have a minute!

I just have a minute before I have to get dinner started. I am still struggling with my portions, but I did get up and get my exercise done. I think Billy Banks is psycho, but beyond that I am feeling good. Now, If someone has suggests to make my 10yr get on the stick w/his homework instead having a melt down, I am open for suggestions. I HATE Mondays!!!! I am tired and crabby and unfortunately so is everyone. We need to go to bed!!!!!!!!

Not losing. . . Not gaining

Well, I have not lost anymore, but I have not gained. So, YEAH! I am still trying to stay focused. So, hopefully, I will start losing again. But my friend Julie asked me how much more weight I lost today, so that made me feel good. It would be nice if I could wake up and be 50lbs lighter. But I am trying to be patient. And I am glad that I haven't gained any back. At work, they blocked sparkpeople.com, so I have a hard time logging my food intact now. But I am not giving up!

When I am upset . . .

When I am upset I shut people out. Partly because I know my mouth gets out of control, but partly because I don't trust that people truly care to help.
When I was in highschool, I found out most of the girls that I considered "best/good" friends didn't like more for the first 2-3yrs we were friends. I was shocked that they faked a friendship w/me. So, I began to learn that not everyone is as upfront as I am (believe me I know that being upfront ALL the time is not the best way to win friends and influence people). So, my trust issues started early . . . tears please :).
Seriously, I don't hide my emotions at all (don't even try). And there may be times that I like to vent, but when I am truly upset I usually shut everyone out. And talk to myself. Usually in my head, but my oldest brother can attest to the fact that sometimes I talk to myself outloud. I like to work things out w/people in my head. Mostly, because in my head people respond in ways that I like better.
I think my biggest problem is that if I am upset enough for it to affect on how I view a person, then I can write people off. Not always the easiest thing in the work place. And since we already established that I don't hide my feelings, things can get sticky.
And that is a little writing prompt from a blog I like, to give you a little insite into my inner workings.

I miss my Arc Trainer!

I have joined a new gym and I miss my selection of cardio equipment. This new gym is really the local community center and is way cheaper and closer. But doesn't have a variety of cardio machines. It has treadmills, elliptical, stationary bikes, and stair climbing things (not like the normal stair machines). But I guess I have to suck it up, because $40/month is WAY better than the $139/month I was paying. Not all cardio equipment is created equal.

Update!

I have still yet to make any jewelry, but a girl at work noticed that I was losing weight! Yeah Me! And she had no idea that I was trying. I know sometimes, people feel obligated to say they can tell that your losing weight because they want to be supportive. And I appreciate their support. But sometimes, you do wonder if they are just lying. So, it was awesome to have someone who has no idea that I am trying to lose weight say "Hey Rachel are you losing weight?" And to top it all off, my clothes are getting looser. That's the biggest PLUS! So, I will keep trying to remain focused!

Mostly done!

Well, I got most of my list done. I haven't made the jewelry, but I am tired and need to go to sleep soon. And I weighted myself after the gym and had lost the 1lb I was worried about. So, it could just be water. But, I will try to remain focused.

2 1/2 things done!

I have almost completed 2 1/2 things on my things to do list. I am going to finish paying bills online and try to finish the rest of the list before the kids get home. Well, I have jewelry to make. That may have to wait until after bedtime.

Get up and Go!

I know that it has been awhile since my last post. I have been sloooow moving lately. I have been volunteering at the school's book fair and have no time. Sweeps week is NOT helping. I think I need a 25-26 hr day to get everything. done. Well, I am sure I could reorganize how I spend my time and get more done. I have only gotten 1 thing on my things to do list done this morning. And unfortunately, when I weighted myself this morning my lack of going to the gym showed. I gained 1 lb. But today that is going to change. I am going to the gym and get myself refocused. I think I have a lot of things to do and get overwhelmed. And then don't do the things I need to and then just get frustrated at myself. And I was getting up w/Lucas when I took him to school instead of sleeping (after working all night). I was CRABBY, but getting things done. But I pushed myself too hard. Because I have been EXHAUSTED. So, I am trying to find a balance. Tomorrow is the last day of the bookfair and my last 2hr shift. So, hopefully next week I will go to the gym every day again. But I am going right NOW!