I need to be at the gym!

I need to be at the gym, but instead I am updating my blog. I know lame. But I am waiting for a phone call from my Grandma and I have some Christmas gifts that I need to be on the computer to finish. I won't explain that might spoil someone's Christmas. Although I am pretty sure my Grandparents don't check my blog. So hopefully, I will get all this stuff done. And the house cleaned and GO to the gym! So I a better get on the stick!

Too busy this week!

Didn't go to the gym today and probably won't tomorrow. I just had too much to do today, and tomorrow is a day to relax. I think my goal is to maintain through the holidays. I am going to try to workout the same and watch what I am eating, but I am NOT going to stress lossing weight. Happy Thanksgiving!

I figured it out . . .

I think that I have finally figured out why I am so tired and having more trouble sleeping. My youngest boys have been playing sports Sat mornings for the last 5 weeks. So, in order to get to basketball at 1100, I only get about 3 1/2 hours of sleep. And then soccer is at 1300 and then usually the rest of the day is packed w/other activities. By the time I go to bed it is nearly midnight since, my body wakes up after 8-9pm. Saturdays are usually my catch up day. Normally when I get home from work I just a few hours of sleep during the day and then go to bed early, but I have been having trouble sleeping. And when I am exhausted that happens, why I don't know. But the nights that I think, I would sleep like a rock-I toss and turn. So, I will be making more of an effort to get to bed on time and take my afternoon naps and try to get the sleep that I am supposed to.

I think my wii fit age this week is 100 . . .

It has a hard week. Sometimes, my body refuses to cooperate with the switching back and forth from days to nights. And this week was one of those weeks. I am having trouble sleeping at night (the 4 nights a week that I can even sleep at night) but having trouble napping during the day. UUUGGGHHH! Working nights just plain screws you up!!! It has been tough to be motivated to work out, and it is wearing me out! Hopefully, it will get batter. I slept okay last night, so I better get to the gym and burn those calories!

Didja Know . . .?

Here is some estimations on the number of calories you burn in 30min of various exercises/activities:
playing pool- 105
Sky diving-156
jumping on a trampoline- 156
belly dancing- 210
heavy cleaning- 216
walking (pace 15min mile)- 216
playing with your kids- 252
cycling (pace 10-11.9 miles/hour)- 270
shoveling snow- 288
swimming- 288
moving- carrying boxes- 336
circuit training- 384
jumping jacks-vigorous- 384
running (pace 10min/mile)- 480
elliptical- 432
skipping- 540

Okay I don't believe I will be jumping out of a plane anytime soon. And I don't think I am going to skip for 60min instead of going to the gym. But I would be happy if anyone wants to burn their calories for the day by doing heavy cleaning at my house. Any volunteers. . . . NO? Worth a shot. Since I have exercise for the last 7 days, I am taking a break today. My shins are KILLING me. Thats what I get for trying to beat mom on the wii fit. Be sure tomorrow I am going to the gym and going on the elliptical machine.

Why be so cruel . . . .

Over the weekend, my family celebrated Thanksgiving. After dinner, I know not the best time- we got on the wii fit. Did you know that if you gain weight, it makes you tell it why? As if its not bad enough seeing your weight curve go up. I was up 2 lbs since the last time I was on it. UMMM Thanksgiving dinner DUH! But saying I just ate wasn't an option. And I always get lectures about needing to exercise EVERYDAY. That wii fit board has a smart mouth :). I spent the weekend trying to dethrone my parents #1 standings. But it was pretty worthless. My mom is killer at the wii fit. And Fred creamed us all at soccer. I am #1 for ski jump (really I tied Mom but the ranks bumped me ahead of her, maybe that board isn't so bad after all . . .) and #1 for beginner boxing. I am not delusional enough to think my ranking will last.

Staying in check . . .

Exercise check
drinking 8-10 glasses of water check
getting 8hrs of sleep check(cumulative right ?)
watching what I eat half check

I am doing pretty good this last week and a half. But am hungry ALL the time. I know my weight loss would speed up if I could get that undercontrol. Tomorrow is a new day!

Check it out!

Check out the ticker at the bottom of the page. Lost another pound. SWEET!

In the Gutters!

I yet again had to clean the gutters out. Hopefully that will be the last time. But when I look at the trees, I know that there is a HUGE possibilty that it will not be the last time this year. The boys helped this time which made it easier for me. They do a pretty good job and even Lucas got on the ladder to help. But the best part was, when the boys were waiting turns-they were playing so well together. Being the only girl, I played by myself ALOT. My brothers HATED me most of the time. I can't blame them. I ratted them out ALL the time. But I am glad that the boys have each other. And choose more often than not to play together. After, the gutters were clean, I then needed to get the leaf drifts off the patio and raking leaves was my exercise for the day. I got to the gym today, so yeah me!

Emotions!

I know that this about my journey through weight loss, but I have been know to be the emotional eater from time to time. When I am stressed, I eat, but when I am super stress, I don't eat. I have enough stress and super stressed is not a state that I would like to be in anytime soon. But I am getting extremely frustrated. About what?

Well, since you asked. Church. I had a great church home. HAD being the operative word. I was involved, felt loved and felt that I gave love. I felt as if I was growing. I loved the teaching. I coheaded the food pantry, helped organize showers, made meals for those who were sick/just had a baby etc, was in a photo class, helped in nursery, in a womens group, and in a prayer group and I could add more. But I think that you get the point. Sometimes, I think back and wonder when I had the time.
But I did. And I loved it. I had a group of solid group of couple friends. And everything was great for a while after the divorce, but for reasons that I won't get into- I made a choice to find a different church home.


And that is the problem. I can't find one. I tried COR, but the kids didn't like it as well. They kept asking if we could go back to our old church. And so then I started going to Heartland. (I linked the church website to their names, so you can check them out.) The kids love Heartland. Some of their friends from school go there and it isn't as overwhelming as COR. But after going there for nearly 3yrs (I think), I don't know anyone. People might know my face or know that I am the boys's mom. But there is no one that I can call and say "Hey, I need . . . " But more importantly, I feeling I am giving nothing. Well, I KNOW am giving nothing. And therefore not growing as a person. I love the worship way better than COR, but I don't always feel challenged after the sermon.

But this week, they had a worship/communion service and it was great. Although, I realized how much of a wall I had built up in my faith. I won't lie. The divorce was HARD. And I felt totally let down by God. He can build the universe in 7 days, but can't save my marriage. And it hit me on Sunday, how much I was still angry at God for not giving me that miracle and how alone I continue to feel at church.


But maybe I needed to be alone. Not caught up in groups/friends/service/acting the way a christian should act. I don't think any of those things are wrong. But maybe what I need to do is tear down the wall, instead of looking for a distraction. A distraction that allows me to focus on people instead of God.


On Sunday, I felt sooo alone sitting in church surrounded by hundreds of people. But it didn't hit me until I started writing, that maybe I need to go back to my childhood faith. And just know that I am not alone.

Wii Fit

Well, the dogs went back to my parents today. So I decided to work out on their wii fit. I had worked out on it nearly 2 weeks ago when they first bought it. And it was missing me. I guess it kept asking my parents if they had seen me since it had been so long since I worked out. It is nice to feel love.

The good thing is my wii fit age is down from 60 to 41. I would really like to know in the grand scheme of life, what my control of balance has to do w/anything. We all know, I am NOT graceful. But my mom has gotten her age down to 27. I think she is cheating. I beat a few of my parents records. So, hopefully when we do the family Thanksgiving, I do it again.

I lost nearly 1lb when doing my workout. I have done really well this week. So, hopefully that will be reflected in my weight. Gotta go!

Today I live in a perfect world!

Today I lived in a perfect world.

I voted and made it to the gym 10min before the childwatch opened ( I did my 60min of cardio burning 640 cal).

I slept while the boys were in school.

The boys came home and did their chores/homework.

I get to work. (Now I know I really need a vacation but for some reason my bills won't get paid if I don't work, and my unit has been closing ALOT lately and I was worried that I wouldn't get to work)

The only thing that would make things perfect is for this xtra weight would just melt away, and pulisher's clearing house comes to the house with a 1million dollar check.

I don't think that is too much to ask for.

Take a load off!

Crazy busy weekend is over. PHHEWWW! I am going to stop and listen to the silence and enjoy. . . . . . Okay Ale' is not being silent.
My parents older dog is weird. She likes the feel of my curtains on her back, and so if I am on the computer- she goes to the window next to the computer and walks back and forth under the curtain.
Like I said WEIRD!

But my mom has a crazy busy week and my dad is out of town ( I thought all of that time in Germany would have kept him from going on business for 2yrs-obviously his boss thinks he needs to earn his keep in country too). So, since I need her help w/the boys, I am dog sitting.

Back to the silence.

I think the moment has passed.

I wanted to go the gym but was too tired. I think I am getting too old. I had to clean the gutters, so it was probably good that I skipped the gym. Because it took me 1 1/2hrs to clean the gutters and clean the patio. ( I think the leaf drift was 3ft deep.) Gotta love fall!

And to make matters more fun. The boys have a 1/2 day tomorrow. Poor planning on my part since I have to work tomorrow night. When am I going to sleep. And why am I in a school district that is always for no apparrent reason having these random 1/2 days.

And I have to vote. I should have voted early.

And I want to work out.

If the world was perfect. I could vote, and be at the gym at 0830 when child care starts. Do my 1hr of cardio and some wts. Be home to take Lucas to school at 1035 and then lay down for a nap and get up around 1300-1330. Boys get home around 1245.

So lets pray that tomorrow is a perfect world.